I didn't sleep much last night. In fact I didn't fall asleep until after 5am. Why? Because there is so incredibly much going through my mind at the moment. It's a miracle I'm still standing and not lying paralyzed in bed (drooling and making strange zombie-like sounds) as all this takes so much of my energy.

Yesterday I was actually quite amused to have been swept up in what seems like a hurricane of confusion. There's new faces, old faces, things that has happened and excitement over things yet to come, everything craving attention and sincere devotion. There's jealousy and flirtation, mixed messages and unspoken promises of the action that I've wanted for so long now. Yet I cannot give in because there's something else, somewhere else that needs to be explored or delt with first. For the first time in quite a long while, I'm in the middle of something... But today it would have been nice if at least SOMETHING made any kind of sense... which it doesn't.

Giving up on coffee right in the middle of all this might just be the worst decision ever. I've been so awfully grumpy all day. GOSH I MISS MY MORNING COFFEE!!!! Roibos tea, my ass!!

Etiketter: Emo-barn, Gegga